well. so last night i met up w/ a guy i have been talking to on email. hes nice enough. pretty goofy, reminds me alot of marc.- in personality, manerisms and speech pattern amoung other things.
its not going to go anywhere, i dont want it to. for one he reminds me too much of marc. now i like marc, but i dont ant to date marc. i really need to be on my own for a while. and i really still miss rosco so very much, every day. but what i miss was the boy who was growing up and was confident and would get a hair cut- the boy he was last fall. but this spring was just a downward spiral. and when we didnt move intogether in May i knew it was the last straw. in a way it makes it easyer to miss him, because i was so angrey w/ him for so long, and it just keept getting worse. so now i miss him terribly, but i am still happier than i have been in months.

he said lets still be friends. but then he never called. or anything else. maybe when he grows up, and gets on his feet again. i dont know. if he were to matuer a little i would take him back in a heart beat.