temper

so latley i have seriously pissed off. seriously. mainly for reasons that are not all the important, and thus only more pissed off.. be cause i'm mad at myself for being pissed off about admitidly stupid things.

i am in the process of moving. it has been suggested that i have a house warming party. i'm not fopund of partys. i feel like i have to enertaine people and they are having a horrible time. i dont have any vidio games, or board games.... or anything really. i spend my time out at work or soccer or what have you, or reading or on my computer- which thanks to this move i can start using my real computer again. and i need to instal a modem. thats right, i'm putting out for dial up. the other problem w/ house warmign is that whaere i am living is a house thats been split in 2. and the back/upstairs/basement is inhabited by a family and the adults are.. like.. 50... so. that would make it a "every one must be gone by 10:30 kind of party... if at that point it can really be called a party. so well see.

so as i said i have been pised of.. seriously... but some how, this morning i woke up happy, and invigorated aobut moving and aobut kitty shoping and aobut getting things done at work so they will be off my concience. it feels like a friday.. a friday where i want to sit and work my ass off to get things done. weird, i know.

apartmenting will be good for me. things are tense at home. nothing has changed, but we are dringing eachother up the wall. i dont want to have to come home every night because its the right thing to do. and i want to have people over and not be like.. well... my parents are here... because, i love our house and my parents arnt bad.. but sometimes its nice to not have them there.

this will be a good week. tonight: kitty shopping, tommorw: i dont know- moving i guess, wed: out and out, thursday birthday dinner, friday: out, saturday: moving[the final, riding, party, party.. uh.. etc., sunday gettign settled.......
i am sure i will be pissed off again by the time i leave work.. and for most of this week. but right now thigns are good, and deep down i know the change is for the better. i really dont have that much to be pissed aoubt, and i keep trying to tell myself that.

time to get to work.